Have
you ever seen an angel? I have. At least that’s what she looked like to me. It
was about five years ago. I was a long haired rebellious young man about to
head off on a four day trek into the middle of nowhere as part of a church
activity. I’m still amazed I was even there. Just a month prior to this I had
not thought about church in years. In my later teenage years I had grown
distant from the religion that I had embraced so fully during my childhood.
Through a string of unforeseen events I had found myself at the cusp of leaving
on this trek and the final meeting, prior to leaving, was in progress. That is when I saw her, my
angel. I did not know who she was at the time, but she was beautiful, even
though she was dressed like a Mormon pioneer, in her ankle length skirt, white
long sleeve blouse, and straw hat. She had big brown compassionate eyes, light
brown shoulder length hair, and an energy that was contagious. I never got her
name, but during the next four days on the trek I would find myself looking
through the crowds of people dressed in pioneer clothing trying to spot her. I
just wanted to be around her, to soak up her goodness, just being in her
presence made me feel like a better, happier person. At that point I never
would have imagined that I could get a girl like her. She was kind, funny,
happy, and a genuinely good person. I was just a punk kid with long hair, no
morals, and a lack of direction. By all accounts I was trouble. If I ever had a
chance of being with a girl like that, I would have to make drastic changes.
After the four day trek in the middle of
nowhere I continued on my own personal journey towards finding God and
happiness. In the midst of my journey I did not think about my angel, but that
was not meant to last forever. While on my journey those drastic changes
started to come, slowly, but surely. I cut my long hair, started going to church regularly, and started hanging out with people who had better values. Through
those changes I found myself going to another unexpected place, Jacksonville,
Florida. I would be there for two years as a full-time missionary for The
Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints. Over the next two years I would
serve God with all my energy. Every day I would go out and try to find people
to teach the gospel of Jesus Christ to. During my time in Florida I thought I
was there to help other people experience their own conversion, but this was
not all I was doing. I was experiencing my own conversion. I learned to love,
be patient, be kind, forgive, and a myriad of other things. I was finally
changing into the kind of man I would need to be in order to be with my angel.
My
two years in Florida were over before I knew it. I was now home in Utah sitting
in front of my ecclesiastical leader having my final interview before I was
released as a full-time missionary. It was a bittersweet moment. The last two
years were the most challenging and most rewarding years of my life. My
abilities had been pushed to their brink, and somehow I had been able to
continue on. Most importantly, during those two years I had found God, finally
experienced true happiness, and become the man I needed to be.
I
had been home only three days before I saw her again. She was still the same
beautiful, sweet, compassionate woman. However, this time I was much different.
It was another church activity, a 5k run, to be exact. I was introduced to her
by her father who happened to be the ecclesiastical leader who had interviewed
me just a few days before.
“Hi,
I’m Lara,” she said.
“Nice to meet you, I’m Zach,” was my reply.
That was the extent of our first meeting. It was a short interaction because I
was at a loss for words. My mind was a blur and for the first time in over two
years I could not think of what to say.
After
the run I was standing around for no reason in particular and I saw her again.
This time she was walking towards me. As she approached I felt butterflies in
my stomach and my mind started to go blank again. I could not believe this was
happening! When she got to me she said, “My dad wanted me to invite you to the
singles ward.” The singles ward is a congregation for young single adults in
The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints.
All
I could do was mutter, “Okay. I’ll have to think about it.” She gave me a quick
smile and walked away confidently.
Over
the next few weeks I did attend the singles ward and related activities. I saw
her frequently. We would say a few things to each other occasionally, but all
of our interactions were short lived. I simply could not talk to her. It’s like
my mind would turn to mush and my tongue would get tied in knots. I would
frequently ask myself, “Why is it so hard to talk to her?”
After
over two months of struggling to have a quality conversation, and hopefully a
date, with Lara my opportunity finally came. It was at an all-day activity for
young single adults. I went with a friend, hoping to see Lara. After being at the activity for about an hour the opportunity presented itself. She was standing in the foyer
of the building we were in, near a staircase. She was wearing a yellow and blue
shirt with a blue cardigan. As I looked at her, our eyes met, and a smile
beamed across my face. I slowly made my way through the crowd and started
talking to her. It was not anything grand, just a simple conversation. From that
point on we were with each other the rest of the night. It was a magical
evening. I was finally myself. We were joking around and having a wonderful
time together. It was one of those nights that I hoped would never end. Then
the moment finally came. The evening had come to an end and it was time to go
home. As I slowly walked her to her car, my mind was racing. I knew I needed to
at least ask her for her number. The words came out slowly and awkwardly, “I
would regret it if I did not ask you for your number.”
She
smiled shyly and proceeded to give me her number. I then finished walking her
to her car and got on my motorcycle and went home.
I
was on cloud nine and there was nothing that could bring me down. I had finally
been able to spend quality time with my angel, Lara. I was smiling ear to ear
and happier than ever. My body was all a tingle and I could not get her off my
mind.
It
took a few days, but I asked her on a date and things continued from there. We
had a few dates and things were progressing very well. I got to know her even
better and she was even more amazing than I had originally thought.
After
two months, hanging out many times, and four dates I knew I had to be with her.
Up until that time we had just been going on dates, but we had not made our
relationship official. It was time to change that. It was Labor Day and she
came over my house to drop something off she had borrowed. It was supposed to
be a quick stop for her before she headed home for the night, but I did not want
it to be quick.
“Would
you like to go lay on my trampoline and looked at the stars?” I hesitantly ask.
I’m sure she knew I was trying to delay her departure.
“Sure,”
was all she replied.
We
slowly made our way to the backyard. She effortlessly hopped on the trampoline and
I followed. She looked even more beautiful in the moonlight. As we lay on the
trampoline cuddling with each other, I could feel the warmth of her body. The sweet
smell of her perfume was intoxicating. I could feel my heart beating rapidly in
my chest. For a brief moment we made eye contact. I then found myself leaning
in to give her a kiss. Our lips gently touched as we kissed for the very first
time. I then uttered words that I had been thinking about for the last few
weeks. “I think we should just date each other.” The words felt clumsy and
indirect as they passed my lips, but it was too late to rephrase them.
She
did not notice the poor phrasing. She simply responded with, “I think I’d be
okay with that.” It was official. We were now boyfriend and girlfriend.
During
those first few months, I felt like a giddy schoolboy. I thought of her
constantly and wanted to always be with her. She was my waking thought and the
last thing I thought of each night before going to sleep. Our love for each
other continued to grow into something beautiful.
To
most people four months of being in a relationship is nothing, but I knew I
wanted to be with her forever. Naturally I started planning a way to ask her to
marry me, but it had to be perfect.
I
knew just the way, but I needed to act quickly.
Lara
loved to make scrapbooks. She has made many of them over the years and found
great pleasure in it. This inspired me to make her a scrapbook. Over the course
of our relationship I had saved small mementos from dates we had been on and
other adventures. The scrapbook would tell our story from the start. In the end
I wrote, “Will you marry me?” and tied in an engagement ring. It took a few
days, and help from my wonderful sister-in-law, but I finished it. Now I needed
the perfect moment to give it to her. My family’s Christmas Eve party was
coming up and I knew that was where I wanted to propose.
The
day finally arrived, and despite the fact that I was about to propose, I felt very calm. I was
excited to propose to Lara, but not nervous. I knew I loved her and that she
loved me. We had not talked about marriage, but this would make my proposal even
more of a surprise.
Time
moves quickly when you are going to school, working, and planning a wedding. We
had set the date. March 19, 2013 was going to be the beginning of our lives
together. Over the next three months we grew even closer to one another and I
knew she was the one for me.
Our
wedding day was incredible to say the least. It was a beautiful spring day full
of laughter, smiles, warm embraces, and love.
Four
and a half years earlier I had never thought I would be here with her, my
angel. It had been a long journey for me. I had been twisted and turned, gone
through ups and downs all to become who I needed to be. It was all worth it
because we were now married and would be together forever.
We
have now been married for six months and I love her more each day. Lara
continues to amaze me and find ways to change me. She has brought a warmth and
happiness to my life that I have never before experienced. I look forward to
being with her forever. She truly is my angel.
And, if you want to see the proposal for yourself...



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